Spiritually Self-reliant

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately.  I have been wondering what I have done or need to do to become more spiritually self-reliant.  I feel like the world is in such turmoil.  I keep asking what more I can do to stay focused on what is really important.

Today in Sunday School a man made a comment that I really liked.  He said that he was asked once by a man that did not think being chase, smoking, or drinking were a problem.  The man asked if he was not open minded.  He told the man no that he knew what he knew and that he believed in being anchored.  He said being open minded means that you allowing the winds of change blow your ship in any direction the winds choose to blow you.  Being anchored allows you to stay in one place in spite of the fierceness of the winds.

Being spiritually self-reliant is my anchor.  I am finding that the more I learn, the more I want to know.  The past couple of months I have been so grateful for my dear husband.  He has allowed me to exercise every morning while he cooks breakfast.  While I exercise I study my scriptures.  I am so thankful for that 45 minutes that I start my day with.  I am feeling that anchor that is hooking me to my Savior.  I am feeling peace in a very troubled world.

 The other thing we have been trying to do is to attend the temple once a week.  There have been a couple of weeks that work has prevented us from attending but for the most part we have been there.  My Savior loves me.  Not because I am perfect but because He is perfect.

I Am Back

So is it time that I got back into the blog game?  YES!  What is my reason for staying away so long?  That is easy to answer.  It is something I am very good at.  PROCRASTINATION!  Oh how I need to get that word out of my life and how it just keeps sneaking back in the door once I throw it out.

Wikipedia defines procrastination as "the practice of carrying out less urgent tasks in preference to more urgent ones, or doing more pleasurable things in place of less pleasurable ones, thus putting off impending tasks to a later time."   My plan was to blog on Sunday.  Then Sunday rolls around and I find myself doing more pleasurable things like taking a nap.  Well today I fought the nap battle and won.  Here I am blogging and not the least bit tired.

Now to blog about something important to me instead of the junk I just wrote.

This morning I was listening to a talk by Cecil O Samuelson.  He said something that just keeps going around and around in my head.  He said, "God loves us not because we are good but because He is good."

I love that.  So many times when I make a mistake the thought comes into my head that I am now unworthy.  God will not want me back.  It is too late to turn around and go back to HIM.  Then I remember who is talking.  It is satan.  Because it is too late for him, he wants it to be too late for all of us.  He want us to be as miserable as he is.

God on the other hand is saying it is never too late.  I love you now and always.  I want you back to live with me.  It is not too late to turn around and correct your mistakes.  There is a good video on lds.org called Wrong Roads.  It is by Elder Jeffery R. Holland.  he tell a personal experience that reminds us to always trust God and the direction He gives us.  He says that when we make decisions, God expects us to pray, trust, and be believing and then not to give up, panic, or jump ship when something doesn't seem to be going right.

Satan, on the other hand, wants to deceive us and get us on the wrong path that will lead us away from God.  He wants to overthrow us.  He tries to make the glitter of the world look better that which will bring us eternal happiness.

I know that God lives.  I know that God loves me.  He loves me not because I am good but because He is good.  He wants what is best for each for me and each one of us.